Wealth and Happiness

First I would like so say thank you so much Mr. Hamilton for electing me to join this Secret Society. Your three Manuscripts have granted me a contextual-based reality unlike anything I could have ever known. I now feel that a huge curtain has been lifted over my eyes, and I feel like I’m now seeing reality for what it really should be however, there is a couple things I want to confess to you, along with a few troubling questions I’d like to ask. I have studied and applied (in part) your mini-day/power thinking team at my current job, and although I began to notice an exhilaration of happiness building inside me however; I saw no change in building wealth or the experience in creating values. Could I be doing something wrong? If so, why do I still feel so excited about the coming existence of biological immortality, even before making the leap into the God-Man mentality? The next thing I’ve been waiting to confess to you is in regards to my broken relationship. I’m 25 years old and had a child with a women I feel stuck in a relationship with. Trying to remain responsible and trying not to fall within the statistic of an absent father, I boldly left behind personal opportunities to help establish this family that I have unintentionally started. To make a long story short, I knock a girl up, got tied in to her illusions and sense of entitlement over me, for that I allowed her to become my external authority which has led me to increasingly hopeless depression that is causing me to miss out on the joy that I and my son should experience together. It breaks my heart to see my son everyday happy to see me, with me chronically unable to crack a little smile for him. All I seem to want to do is go back to work and further think about improving the mini-day/power-thinking schedule I set up. It seems to be the only time I’m having fun in my life. It should be with my son as well. Mr. Hamilton, I gave up on looking for the girl of my dreams due to the fact that I now have a child with a women that I care about but, sadly, I do not love her. My questions to you are, should I continue to try and make it work with my child’s mother? Or is it still reasonably “ok” to leave my current situation with her while still upholding my responsibilities towards my son and find a way to put myself in a new place to work on becoming the person I was meant to be? You know, I didn’t actually intend to write this much, my apologies sir, it’s just that, my consciousness has been in such great turmoil over these restless questions I have, and there are so much more that I have, but these are what I feel is currently halting my progress to make the leap into Neothink. I want it so desperately bad to become the Self-Leader and tear down these illusions that plague me as well as for the rest of mankind. Mr. Hamilton, if there is any way you can help me, any revelations and conclusions you can bring to me to shed light on, I would appreciate such from the deepest reaches of my heart.