Thank You For The Welcoming

Thank you for welcoming me into your home/vision. I have always had difficulty with the “official” version of how-to and why. After being part of a few groups early on, and reading voraciously and absorbing ideas from other cultures (it’s 40+ years now), I choose what feels right for me. It’s not just wanting to expand my horizons, but desiring to expand my kindness to others, and to myself. Part of that self-kindness is understanding that I can have more abundance for myself, my family, and others, and can do so w/o guilt and naive selfishness. There’s nothing I’d like more than to provide abundantly for a loving woman, my children, my grandchildren, and for those who cannot yet provide for themselves. // Your Primary Laws feel like, basically, a summary of my philosophy. It’s beautifully stated; I believe in it and think it’s terrific! I want to be part of that world, starting with each one of us individually, and enjoy and celebrate the amazing things we all can bring, and do bring, to the
table. // Bottom line re: level 01 session – I believe my Friday Night Essence is singing, perhaps with a little guitar back-up. Although my life’s loves have been my children, special ladies, sports, academia, and talking with others in a teaching/helpful way, when I have performed privately for others, and just by myself, I transport to a place I can only describe as a sort of bliss. The only other thing that comes close to it is feeling my children’s or family’s love, and the camaraderie of my friends. It took me a while to let this essence out of me again because the idea of performing brings on a debilitating fear I’ve never really moved past. I’m also older now and wonder how I’d be accepted and enjoyed at this time. In the past, at the prodding of friends periodically, I’ve put together a small playlist and prepped to do open mic or small volunteer performances. I’ve gotten l right to the point of being prepared and ready to go, and then couldn’t push myself that next step to actually do the performances. I have ever felt that I designed it myself and not take me up to unity to fulfill myself in this way. I’m really not looking for sympathy, I just thought it best to be straight about it, which is how I like to be about most things. // Certainly another essence is creative writing. In the past, l short stories and poetry just flowed. In the last decade storytelling for children, especially adventure-type stories, seemed to just flow out of me spontaneously. A number of years ago I started a mythic novel and got through a few chapters. I really liked the ideas, as did the few I shared it with). The ideas seem to come naturally, nbut i wasn’t very good at the conversational part (better at the narrative). I’d love to sing and write, what a dream! Thanks for the sharing. Michael