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My question is that I have a problem remembering everything I’ve read due to selective memory. I can’t read at a fast pace and it’s hard for me to focus on a book for so long. I know right now I’m not where I need to be right now because of this. I’m still reading just the second book. Really I didn’t know it was going to be this hard of a journey. Meaning its a lot of books I’ve going to have to read through the process. I want to do what ever I can to progress. I just need help with guidance to know the proper way to take on such a long journey with books. I don’t want to give up because I know that through time taking it by a small approach at a time I can make it. I also know that I can’t take to many small approaches because that’s the reason I’m so far behind now. The Society says they believe in me. I know I believe in me. I just need to find the right approach so I can be find the source in me that will give me the “will” to want to know more, more, and more like Mr. Hamilton. I still got to learn how to integrate my mind to know how to use my skill set to my advantage. Please help soon.