Love and hapiness

I have had the most unusual year of my life. To start with I went bankrupt and lost everything. I have always had money,property and worked hard, but my wife made me lazy, lose sight of my goals and I made decisions to please her that were wrong for me.
I now have a job for the first time in seven years and yes it really is horrible and boring, but I am doing it to punish myself for being so stupid and to punish my wife for taking up so much of my time.
I realised I felt no love for my wife and someone unusual happened, at work every woman made a pass at me within about two weeks. They were all following me around, getting their hair done etc. they all wanted me, but I was going through a depressing time. I had gone back to a child, I had no self confidence and often found myself crying. If the woman at work got too close to me or I showed interest in them, they would have an orgasism and I would sometimes find them crying. I did not know what I wanted or what to do. I had a wife and three lovely boys.
I loved book one of the heirloom package, but I cried on almost every page. I would stop reading, go back and would almost instantly start crying again, the tears just rolled down my face like a river. Why was this?
I have always been shy, but I eventually found the courage to ask one of the woman out, but I was not surprized when she said no, as they are all so scared of me, in fact I was actually relieved she said no.
Now I am over my depression and ready to move on and have started thinking about working/playing hard as I always love to do.
I love most woman and would like them to be friends, but they all seem to see me as a sex object and are afraid to get near me.
I am still not sure I should stay with my wife although I still see her as my best friend and we get on great together. My heart just doesn’t want to love her like it should.