Level One Integration

I’ve been engaging in my several different friday-night essences regularly since I received my second Neothink manuscript. I think my prime essence may be music, for I have discovered a power-reactor explosion of creativity on the guitar! I just intuitively sense how to express feelings, emotions (mostly anger and despair) through the strings on the fretboard with mathematical precision. It is a level of comprehension and competence that language is insufficient to describe, and it builds upon previous epiphanies (is this integrated thinking/ Neothink?). Unfortunately I’ve sort of hit a brick wall as I haven’t the slightest clue what to do next despite all of this, it’s only raw talent – I can write riffs, but not entire songs and I have no band. I’m still a 24-yo, college educated, unemployed loser with no life who plays guitar solo, and plays poker but only makes a little bit of money long-term. I really honestly want to do everything I can to change that, but how? Where do I start?? I get the whole “journey of 1,000 miles begins with a single step” thing, but I feel as though I can see my destination on a mountaintop and the path is obscured, unable to be perceived. Still kinda hopeless and not that passionate about life…not sure if I want to be one of the first immortals yet. Thanks for this opportunity at such a young age, Mark, but I don’t know if I can seize it or even make it through another year.