level 1 meeting

Hi, this is hard for me to say, I an a 100% disabled Army Veteran. the main part has been the severe pain in my lower back that travels down to my feet. it is constant and as so I am on a continuous regime of pain Medication. which is doing damage to my body at a rapid pace in the sense of time… In the beginning I was not noticing it but now I cant help how it has completely taken over my life, the worst being my ability to remember things. We could talk today and maybe tomorrow I might not even no that we had met. But it doesn’t always work that consistent. I have read all the books That I have received but I have to keep going back and reading each line sometimes 5 or 6 times and sometimes it takes a day to read and comprehend a page a day.. Its is so difficult I know I have to do these levels one a month but watching this tonite I only remembered pieces here and there when I finally thought I was ready to do this level. I am so sorry but I am going to have to proceed slower pace until I can find away to do this. I have been on the strongest pain meds. they will allow me and they are no longer effective for me so everything is so painful but I have tried to back off it worrying about addiction and all but it is way to painful for that. and staying on the Meds. this dose since 2010, and overall since 2003, and I know I now need to go back and read and before going on to level 2 but at that pace I will never make it through the level in 12 months as Mark H. would Like. I have been Hoping that like Mark has said in his letters that things would start working in my favor after purchasing these books and reading them. And unlock all the Luck, Romance, and unlocking these codes would open up hope that using my Friday night essence and constantly pushing myself that things would start going my way. But I am at a loss…. I hope for guidance , or advise even suggestions. I am completely open. Note though if you want to contact me by phone if it is unlisted # I wont pick it up unless you let me know in advance, just text me to the same ph# but tell me where to call or text you to. Thank you for any help you can.