Level 1 meeting

Because of a very busy schedule, I have been unable to complete much of the reading of the the three books. After seeing many of the questions posed during this meeting, I am feeling a bit overwhelmed trying to “play catch up”. One thing with which I am having considerable difficulty though in the reading I have done is attempting to break down many of the beliefs and values on which I have based my life. To this point, they have generally served me reasonably well. By trying to “rid” myself of these core beliefs, it is almost as if I’m saying that up until now, my life has essentially been meaningless,with which I firmly and profoundly disagree. At this stage of my membership, I guess I don’t really have the “why” I even want to replace these core beliefs with something totally unproven to me. I have gained some interesting insights from the material I have been able to read and absorb, but not to the level of replacing my core beliefs. Any thoughts on this dilemma?