Level 1 integretation

My mind feels like scrambled eggs right now. I am vividly reminded of Kevin Trudeau’s lecture from Your Wish Is Your Command. Talking about teach-ability index. All of the concepts I haven’t quite grasped yet, but I am told to review Self-Leader system and Vision Climax found in 2nd heirloom package it was in the 2nd vision, which I will do, but I will admit I don’t know what I don’t know at this time. I know I am willing to learn and make changes in my life to learn here. I have also learned delayed gratification, meaning if it takes me a year to progress and move on and starting to see the results, I’m okay with that. I haven’t figured out my Friday-night essence yet. I am introverted and I really did not play with friends when I was a child. I had no passion when I was in high school. I remember being so frustrated with school, because of the government indoctrination, I woke up one day after I graduated and realize I didn’t know what to do with my life and I was still home with no job and plans for the future. It really scares me how I let my life pass me like that. These are my early thoughts on Level 1. I appreciate any feedback I can get in relation to these thoughts.
Thanks.