integrateOne

As I sit, slumped from pain, I wonder again @ this ‘question Op’…I believe my fri.nite Essence is, and has been of multiple variety for a number of decades now..I do create, and for added fun, sometimes continue to ‘mentor’ thru music and/or culture.. I grew up w/ an attitude of Service to Community; which becomes an outlet for self rejuvenation…I get energy back from giving of myself….for these past 8 years of stage 4 cancer survival, and attempts @ ‘recovery’, much of experience has been one of patience; and closely accompanied by acceptance…I believe I have always let my creative side and abilities determine How I ‘muddle’ thru Life with followers and producers, w/ more thought to creation than to monetary recompense…I just never wanted money as much as I desired an outlet for creativity, a place I felt needed, in some way… I have recently made great advances in physical recovery, which does allow me more time spent standing up; some days, ‘things happen’, which is how today started…around 5 AM while watering the yard, my back went out…I have, and shall continue to have difficulties w/ my physical presence, yet try to Not let this interrupt my Happiness and creative day from occurring…just re-focus on what I can do, today…So, while being single Does sometimes ‘gall’ me, and I do wish I had paid more attention to money B 4 my ability, physically, went South…I only desire a gratification of conversation w/ those who are engaged in medical research [ Aging and Alzhiemers’ are just 2 of my ‘areas of interest’] and Science, both interfacing w/ existing technologies, as well as ways to introduce improved thinking into patterns of Behavior…. Indeed, I feel more ‘held-back’ than I do any Questions of Submittal for Review… A positive approach to my Day, to Life, and to interactions w/ others is what drives me .. and one i hope only to Hone into better behavior on my part in the way I lend of myself to what is needed in the Now….[ I am reticent to hit “enter” for a new paragraph, in fear I’ll lose this letter of reply, so please bear w/ my ‘neophyte’ computer experience} .. Hmm–basically, I shall review my 2nd Heirloom package, continue to re-thingk terminology of NeoThink, yet can’t help but wish i were in conversation about implementation of Tech ideas from Sci. and Med Fields…My brain has ability to interject pointed queries into thinking processes, and engaging others in moments of ‘Epiphany”..and I truly Itch to engage…Which is another of my Fri. Nite Essences..letting my brain ‘off-the-Leash’ in areas I enjoy,have bits of knowledge and some contacts, yet have little interaction for Formalizing ideas and thoughts….I am here Not for Wealth, but for increasing knowledge; interaction w/ persons I have NO way to contact in my present existence; and availing my brain, background, and experiences to others in belief I am here to make a difference …SO, while I shall do more homework, I should say my question would be..When?