I’m excited and curious

I’m excited and curious at the same time! I will be honest and say that I haven’t read all of the material so a lot of the discussion was over my head, but I can relate overall to the dynamics of Neo-thinking. I’m curious to know how I was selected though, (meaning from where?) My thought process is so in line with what you teach, which is why I’ve been so frustrated with “existing” and not “playing” as you described it. Wow, I know exactly what you mean. Is it realistic to keep up with the program while still reading the manuscripts? I’m 42, desperate to excel in life and looking to discover my Friday Night Essence! I am NOT a typical
“worker bee” so working a regular job is a “slow death” and I need to definitely PLUG IN with “like minded” individuals. There’s a burning desire to “PLAY” within me and I’m determined to find my play ground. Please give me specific direction. Thanks!