Friday night essence

I have been retired for ten years and have been a care-giver for my wife’s parents. As such I have no idea what my essence is or should be? I worked in the Corp. world before retiring, and my retirement went with the economy, to he– so I don’t know where to begin. I can see by watching the news that the change to get rid of the bums in Washington is underway, and we are getting close to being ready for a twelve visions president