Feeling great overall, but could use a little guidance.

First off, I’d like to say thank you for selecting me to be apart of this group! Like a lot of others, I questioned the legitimacy of the society at first. Thanks to modern technology, I did a lot of research on the group and found a lot of negative stuff, mostly from people who haven’t even seen the first book. There were members of the group responding to these negative people, and the main thing I noticed was that they really crushed any negative statement with ease. I went back to my first letter and thought, “this is one of the things they promise you will learn” so it started to change my mind. I took the leap of faith and really felt a tug from within to do this, despite not making very much money. Boy am I glad I made that decision!
The only issue I seem to be having right now, is that I’m not sure how to apply these techniques to my friday night essence. I am a music producer (I just graduated from Icon Collective in October 2014) and it took me MUCH closer to my dream: to make music (and help others make their music) that inspires the masses. I want to make music that makes people want to create, create something that in turn will inspire others to create as well. I believe that a lot of the popular music in today’s world is ridden with materialistic, narcissistic nonsense that only inspires people to be selfish and devoid of any kind of spiritualism. With so much of that being out there, I feel there needs to be more people who counter act all the negativity in the music.
That being said, I am currently working from home producing tracks for others (not really focused on making my own music right now). I don’t have a 9-5 job where I can take over responsibilities. I am starting to toy with the mini days but I can’t seem to make a schedule that lasts. It will work well for about a week and I find myself distracted… maybe because I’m home? I would love nothing more than to be a self leader, but am finding some challenges in integrating this material when I don’t work at a regular type of office.
Aside from that, I feel much more efficient all around. I feel myself having a lot of “aha” moments, more than usual. I look forward to moving up and learning more!