Child at heart

To become a child at heart and mind, with the knowledge, wisdom and discipline of an independent man, woman.

My question, my lifelong problem is: My dad and his family started from my birth to blackmail me into becoming a roman catholic priest I have fought them and the members of the antcivilization that chose to help them blackmail me for over 50 years Death seems to be the only thing that stops them as it stopped my Dad. However, his family and fiends continue examples are 1. My dad found out that a number of people in the free masons believe that if you are a product of an incestuous relationship
You are an affront to god and should never get married and have children. My dad’s family believes that as long as they can keep me from getting married they have a chance of successfully blackmailing me into the priesthood. So they concocted a lie that Raymond Doll my first cousin four years older than I is my real DAD, not disputing who my mother was. Claiming that makes me a product of incest.
My mother only being related to the Doll family by marriage to my dad. You would be surprised to learn how many non-catholics have joined the doll family in trying to blackmail me in to the priesthood over that lie. 2. My dad found out that I was dating back in 1983 while living in an apartment complex with about 500 unites he had a man go around the apartment complex and tell them that he was my cousin Louise Stanly and that he knew I had aids. No one would tell me what was going on but by gang valance, shunning, and the financial pressure of raising my rent every month topping out at $ 400.00 for a studio apartment that normally rent for less than $200.00 I was forced the financial burden of moving.
Five years later, I was in a Wal-Mart store and a former resident of the apartment complex
Shocked to see me still alive told me what they had done. My family claims’ that Louis was in jail at that time. I confronted my dad about it and he boasted that he did it to force me back home so he could manipulate me some more into becoming a priest. None of the doll family or their fiends understands the word (no ) Is there a Neo-Tech way of shutting them down eternally?? At war 50 years to long.