dont understand

I would first like to say thank you for choosing me to become a neothink member, but in all honesty I AM COMPLETLY LOST’ I have not completed any of the hierloom packages thatt were sent to me, simply put i dont have the time, full time job, husband father and grandfather’ I FEEL AS IF I WASTED MONEY that i realy could not afford that could have went towards my family. I KNOW THATS NOT THE ATTITUDE TO HAVE’ just dont understand whats happening.