Level 1 meeting part 1

Dear Mark, just wanted to say thank you so much again for seeing my potential n special hidden talents! I feel VERY HONORED to have you as my mentor n have gotta say I honestly dreaded n hated reading any type of literature before! Although ever since I read the entire 1200 page Superpuzzle I was VERY intrigued and could not put it down EVERY time I would open it n start reading! (Which really blew me away) Every time I would open it n read it I would ALWAYS feel a soul mate type of connection to ALL the characters n also a kind of been there done that or a VERY similar experience in my life! Why is that? I also read thru the entire 2nd n 3rd heirloom manuscripts too! But am finding it hard n difficult at times to be able to keep the forward momentum going per se! Why is that? And also how do I get around the negativity that surrounds me to be able to break free fully n continue on a positive forward motion instead of a roller coaster uphill battle? (Especially when it is only my family n loved ones NOW with the negativity due to our anticivilization n routine rut/stagnation! Because I have already eradicated the bad elements of my former so called negative friends n acquaintances! But I don’t want to n CAN’T leave my family n loved ones in negative ruins per se!)