The high point

When I read my first letter, I immediatly began to see change in the world around me. Then during my first manuscript I recieved a higher paying job. My kids seemed to listen to me better and my life finally seemed to be getting better. But since then, I have had one bad thing after the other. I am back to feeling afraid and lost! Is there something I can do to get back my initial thrill?? Also, I met my first actual member recently, and he is also struggling!