Excited, Concerned, Confused

Hello Mr. Hamilton. Thank You! Thank you first, for being you, and being brave enough to follow thru, on being you. In todays anticivilization, it takes bravery to stand up, for what you know is right and for what you believe in. In my small part of the world, I try to do the same.
I’m excited and grateful for and about this opportunity, you have set before me. I was confused, about the wealth part, as I have seen the get-rich-quick, schemes on several different levels and have felt the let down that comes with finally finding out the truth, that there is no such thing. So I was a little taken aback with the first few letters. Now I’m concerned about the length of time and the amount of money I will be spending, before I see a return on said monies. I feel in my heart of hearts, that everything I have read and felt all my life is finally being explained to me, and I have my love of learning back, but at the present, working a going nowhere job in a state that really doesn’t support upward movement of its people, and I guess the worst part for me, living paycheck to paycheck, is very depressing. I have an idea of what my Friday-Night-Essence is. And I have used it to get thru in the past. But this is different. I’ve always tried to create a business that would help other people in a good way, while still allowing me to live comfortably. Someone or something has always stopped that from happening. Growing up my first love was music and my other first love was trucking. I never followed thru on the singing, but I’m a 37 year veteran of the trucking industry. The government has destroyed that industry and a lot of fond memories went down with it. Your books have reopened the desire in me to start another business, using the techniques in your books, but I have blown-up a lot of bridges, behind me. Money, especially for a start-up business is almost impossible to come by, and if I share my idea with other people and it turns out to be as good as I think it will be, ( and I have been here before) someone will steal my idea. I hate it, but I understand that is the nature of the beast. I so much want to be a part of this society, but money is low and I fear I may miss out. It will be another week before I can come up with $30 to join the society online. Sorry.
Still I have hope and am very excited about your teachings, Mr. Hamilton. So, once again, Thank You. Dusty