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I am just in awe to have been chosen for this society. I have recieved the first two books and am awaiting the third I have paid for it but it has not arrived yet, so i am a little lost as to the third books content.
I am a linier thinker sometimes ok most of the time and enjoy learning things from one point to the other in order and like to take my time to completely understand everything that i read.
I understand what Mark meant by playing because as my three children have all grown and have lives of their own i palyed a lot with them and grew up with them experienceing their childhood with them. life sometime seems rather busy and impossible to find time for things and i am really hopeing that this will help me to clear my life and path to find what i was or am really supose to be in this universe.
My father was a baptist minister and my whole life has been one of religion without answers. HELP