Getting stronger with the essence

I have known about my ‘Friday Night Essence’ for years but without realizing it’s true dramatic impact on my life. When I go into a deep depression my mum always tells me ‘I think it’s about time you made something’. I know she’s right, and get my brain in gear on a new project. Once I get my first spark of an idea I’m off! My heart races out of my chest I get more and more excited, I can’t tell people how exhilarated I feel. I don’t want to go to bed and can’t wait to get up, it’s a fantastic feeling. Unfortunately, I always seem to allow other people to kill it, they criticize me,put me down,even though they can’t do the things I do themselves.I’m told its jealousy, but I have so little confidence in myself, it doesn’t take long to destroy my feelings of excitement. I ended up asking for a divorce because I had 18 years of being told ‘don’t be stupid’ every time I got one of my ‘ideas’ to make things nicer, each time I got my buzz of excitement it got squashed and I was left flat and depressed. Why can people do this to an individual and why do I let them? Since being introduced to Neothink I am getting stronger I know I can do whatever I put my mind to, whatever others say but I’ve a long way to go. Looking forward to the next lesson.