Slow Bloomer? Or just Doubts?

Hi Mark Hamilton, I am concerned with a few things in regards to the heirloom packages. I have read some of the first book and the whole orientation manual, but the problem I find is that my mind gets fried quickly, or I just get extremely tired or fatigued after about 50 pages or so. Is this a general problem? I was thinking about applying a mini day just to finish these books knowing how important they are, but I don’t know If I am lacking motivation or am just struggling. I’ve read these stories about amazing changes in peoples lives, and I haven’t noticed anything different yet, so am I just one to awaken more slowly? I apologize for any confusion, but this is very overwhelming and I am sincerely trying, and am just wondering if this is one of my trials that I have to overcome?